you must be lonely

well, i didn’t post yesterday, but i figured david had it covered with his awesome yeosu video. so, i’m back today with not too much to say. today was a pretty tough day, honestly. my coteacher was more unorganized than usual, believe it or not, and halfway through my morning i had some very confusing conversations with my supervising teacher about my upcoming summer camp. he told me he needed detailed lesson plans from me by this friday, when i’d never had to turn in lesson plans for a camp before.

i don’t need to get into all the little confusing, exhausting details, but by lunchtime i was so wiped out. the final straw happened when i was walking back from lunch with a new coworker who said to me out of the blue, “i think you are lonely. you must be lonely if you can’t speak korean.” how do i respond to that rather awkward observation?! i just forced a smile and said “i’m okay.” what i really wanted to say is “yeah. at work, i guess i’m lonely. i’m confused and left-out and the last to know and kids laugh at me more than they listen to me. but i’m not going to learn your language when i’m only here for a short while. and i’ve got a great husband and great friends when i’m not work suffering through all of this ridiculousness. i’m just fine, thank you very much.”  something to that effect. i don’t know. the job is really, really hard. every day is a battle. but it is temporary (as i must remind myself hourly). and everything else about my life here is fun and adventurous. so i’ll just keep on keepin’ on. to quote modest mouse, “laugh hard it’s a long ways to the bank.”

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About breeanncowger

restlessly seeking, persistently hoping, remaining in awe of the world in which we live.
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3 Responses to you must be lonely

  1. Kimber says:

    What a warrior you are to continue to persevere through this. Praying for and thinking of you! Will you be able to change schools for the next session/semester? Sure hope so!!

  2. caryn says:

    We love you, BreeAnn. You are a jewel to us and to so many other friends and family.
    You are an amazing young lady…too bad the teachers have not taken time to get to know you.
    We are praying for you.
    ‘The Lord Himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you.
    Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged’ Deut. 31:8

  3. Abby says:

    I miss you friend. Can’t wait to see you in less than a month. Keep your head up! :)

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